What’s Your Plan?

I will be the first person to admit that I am very possessive of MY schedule.  When I make a plan and write down a schedule, I really don’t like unexpected changes.   It’s not that I plan my day out hour by hour or minute by minute.  That’s a bit too rigid for me.

I just have an idea of what needs to get done, how and when (approximately) I’d like to get it done.  Any upset and I am easily irritated and annoyed.

The truth is as much as I pray for God to guide my day and show me the steps to take, I want Him to work within MY schedule.

Yes, that’s right.  I said it.

It’s terribly embarrassing to realize my attempts to box the God of the Universe to fit into my tiny little world.  It’s actually horrifying.

Am I trying to BE God?

Cuz that puts me right in the ranks of a certain angel who lost his place in the heavenlies and became the mortal enemy of God and humanity.

So in praying today, after coming to the realization that I was trying to control my world and asking God to fit within my guidelines, I had to be really honest about giving God my day and asking Him to guide me.  I also had to confess and ask Him to allow me to recognize my pride and need for control.

It goes back to that nasty lie I have believed for so long: “God is not enough.”  If He was, I would not question the interruptions of my day but receive them as part of His plan for me…

For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome.
~ Jeremiah 29:11 (Amplified)

Knowing that God has thoughts for me – plans for me – plans for welfare and peace – and NOT for evil – I can rest and trust that HE is taking care of me and all the details of my life.  I can replace my false belief with the truth and relax with every unexpected blessing He brings my way.

I can make plans and schedule order in my day.  But ultimately, it comes down to Proverbs 16:9:

A man’s mind plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps and makes them sure. (Amplified)

The key to success in my day and schedule, in anyone’s day and schedule, is making plans and giving them to God.  He knows our greatest needs – He knows what we need to accomplish and how we can accomplish them.  He also knows the “fluff” that we fill our days with and will help us line our priorities up with His.

If you have a tough time – like I do – with making and keeping to a schedule or accomplishing your necessary responsibilities – maybe it’s time to go to God and ask Him for His help minute by minute, hour by hour – and to teach you how to put your plan within HIS plan for you.

P.S. – If you need a practical tool to help you stay on top of your family’s schedule and activities – check out my post at Mommies Coffee Break today!  You can’t control every minute of every day, but having order provides some measure of peace. =)


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More Than Enough – Part 3

Sadly, because I did not believe God was Enough for me, I began my pursuit to find ENOUGH for my life.

Enough money.

Enough status.

Enough friends.

Enough worth.

Enough stuff.

Enough food.

Enough. Enough. Enough!

ENOUGH ALREADY!

As I was washing dishes before lunch on Sunday – feeling raw from the aftermath of discovery and acknowledgment of my sin of discontentment and lack of faith in God – rather than bashing me over the head or pushing me down with guilt, God spoke the words of this song into my heart:

All of You
is More Than ENOUGH for
All of me
for every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your Love
and all I have in You is
More than Enough

More Than Enough

The truth is this:  God is everything anyone ever needs.  Not only is He our Creator, He is our Sustainer.  He can provide our NEEDS down to the food we eat, shelter to protect us, fellowship to encourage us.

He provided manna in the desert to feed a nation.

He provided a ram in the nick of time for a faithful father.

He provided an ark for anyone who would believe Him.

He provides not just a Saviour, but New Life in our Savior.

He provides healing – our Jehovah Rapha.

He is our Provider – Jehovah Jireh.

So – enemy of my soul – let me tell you what you can do with your lie from the pit of hell – you can have it back.  You have no power here.

God is My Father, Jesus is My Saviour and whatever may come – He is More Than Enough for me.






God is Not Enough – Part 2

What a devastating realization to be brought face to face with a lie that has been embraced as a truth in my life for so many years.

God is Not Enough.

If you haven’t read yesterday’s post, start there. As you’re reading this, maybe you have the same reaction to this idea.  A reaction of shock and disbelief.

Of COURSE God is enough.  Isn’t He the Creator of the Universe, Lord of All, Supreme Ruler, Omnipotent, Omniscient, Lord God Almighty!?!  Sure, He’s enough.

Isn’t He?

I found myself staring blankly at a mirror in my mind, coming to the full realization that I had embraced this lie of the enemy and allowed it to seep into every corner and almost every waking thought of my life.

How do I know?

Discontentment.

Discontentment with practically everything in my life, at one point in time or another – or for long periods of time.  Where I live.  Who my friends are or aren’t. What I have or don’t have.  What I drive or don’t drive.  My clothes.  My singleness.  My friends.  My job.  My education. My marriage.  Motherhood.  My body. My identity.

On and on the list goes.

Now I’m not here to simply confess this to you, but my purpose instead is to share with you that the lies of our enemy are so silky smooth, we may have held onto them for decades.  We may have grabbed on to some twisted truth that has entered our life in the midst of some trauma – a lie that has seeped in and changed our perception of the Truth about God.

God does not change.  God is forever Alpha & Omega – unchanging, reliable, steady, sure.

But the enemy, oh how he loves to capitalize on our pain and speak into our wounded souls lies that initially bring comfort, that bring intellectual satisfaction or emotional justice – or lies that just drive the wounds deeper and make us howl with pain.

But that’s where God comes in.  Remember the C.S. Lewis quote from yesterday?  How God shouts into our pain?

God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world.
~ C.S. Lewis

He is relentless.

In my ignorance – in my clinging to the shreds of a lie that sought to destroy my life – to keep me bound in chains unable to live the purpose God has for me with the gifts He’s blessed me with – He shouted into my pain.

Inexhaustable.

While sitting in the Bible study, as the “light bulb” came on and flashed in my face, I realized how and where this lie began its most powerful impact in my life.

I had grasped onto the lie at some point in my youth, but its most devastating effect came with my decision to have an abortion at age 17.  My physical relationship with my boyfriend was evidence of having believed the lie, but it wasn’t until I came out of the recovery room after my abortion that the lie left me wounded so deeply.

I didn’t believe God was enough to carry me through that pregnancy.  Still in high school, terrified of my dad’s reaction, terrified of being alone to raise a child – I didn’t think God was ENOUGH to provide for me or my child.

Despite my pregnancy with Mikhael and his adoption experience which showed God was MORE THAN ENOUGH – I’d done more damage to my soul than I could even fathom.

And that’s where the enemy had power.  Where I gave him permission to speak into my soul.  Just like Eve, I walked right up to that ONE forbidden tree and listened to what the enemy had to say despite God’s warning to stay away.  Thoughts and ideas filled my mind and I became consumed with believing that I had to do for myself and that God was not ENOUGH…  That I COULD do for myself because God was not enough…

But still He was there.  My Abba Father God still pursued me – shouting into my pain – waiting for me to turn to Him again so He could show me just how He was more than ENOUGH for my life…

more tomorrow…


Calling All Company Girls – Is it Due Season, Yet?

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And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.  Galatians 6:9 (NKJV)

Although the Company Girls will be visiting today, I just want to thank all of my readers and visitors – again – for your comments and thoughts when you leave them.  It is appreciated and I enjoy our interaction.

Can I tell you that I just feel beat down?  This week has been full of difficult things.  Intermediate Algebra being one (and I’m not joking when I ask for all of you to pray for me in this battle against algebra – a required class for my degree…)

God has allowed my family to enter into a season right now that is hard.  Tough.  Painful.  Exhausting.  Fraught with questions.  Concerns.  Fears.

I first met it with great bravado and staunch faith.  And aside from my math frustrations and physical things – I would likely still be unwavering.  But I am tired.  And my body is weak.  And my mind is bogged down.

I don’t want to face the enemy.  I don’t want to face down the fearful predator that wants to steal peace and joy from my family.  I don’t want to have to be in the heat of battle.

What if I fail?  What if I can’t make it?  What if we lose?

Sometimes, I dig in my heels and use the tools God has given.

And sometimes, I lose heart.

But GOD IS FAITHFUL.

And His strength is like no other.  And He shoulders the burden with us.  He takes on the pain and bears the brunt of the enemy’s hot fire as it threatens to consume.

God is faithful, by whom you were called into the fellowship of His Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.  1 Corinthians 1:9 (NKJV)

So, I have to learn to wait for the “Due Season” when the hard work pays off.  When reaping yields a rich harvest…  More joy.  More love.  More peace.  More God.

But I’m impatient.  I’d like the “hard stuff” to be over.  The good stuff to be here.  Due Season…

And then I heard this song speak peace into my spirit:

I will praise you in this storm And I will lift my hands.
For You are who You are, No matter where I am.
Every tear I’ve cried, you hold in your hand.
You never left my side.
And though my heart is torn, I will praise you in this storm.

I lift my eyes unto the hills. Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, Maker of heaven and earth…

I’ve been singing this song all week – and woke up singing it in my head this morning.  Although he may be asleep in the stern, He is still in our boat, and He is STILL Master of the Storm…  Your prayers for my family would be so appreciated.

A New Book. A Daring New Life…

FearlessHB_LNo, I haven’t written a book.  But one of my MOST favorite authors has.  And it’s on a topic that I knew far too well: Fear.

Fearless: Imagine Your Life Without Fear

And I’ve been reading the first chapter.  I was able to digitally ownload it free because I subscribe to his UpWords newsletter. (You can subscribe to this newsletter here, or click to read Fear Not and Fearless ch. 1)

Once again, in a matter of a few simple words, Max has drawn the ultimate portrait of life as we know it.  How it feels – how it works – and how God wants it to be…

And reminds me – once again – WHO IS the Master of the Storm.

On a day when I so need to be reminded.  When the waves threaten to crash over me and drown me.  When some of the difficulties of life just seem too difficult to fathom, let alone bear.

This statement:

Christ-followers contract malaria, bury children, and battle addictions, and, as a result, face fears. It’s not the absence of storms that sets us apart. It’s whom we discover in the storm: an unstirred Christ.

And these, too:

Fear does this. Fear corrodes our confidence in God’s goodness. We begin to wonder if love lives in heaven. If God can sleep in our storms, if his eyes stay shut when our eyes grow wide, if he permits storms after we get on his boat, does he care? Fear unleashes a swarm of doubts, anger-stirring doubts.

And it turns us into control freaks. “Do something about the storm!” is the implicit demand of the question. “Fix it or . . . or . . . or else!” Fear, at its center, is a perceived loss of control. When life spins wildly, we grab for a component of life we can manage: our diet, the tidiness of a house, the armrest of a plane, or, in many cases, people.

The more insecure we feel, the meaner we become. We growl and bare our fangs. Why? Because we are bad? In part. But also because we feel cornered.

Does that speak to you?  It sure does to me.  I have to reread it again and again to let it sink in.

And I’ll have to buy this book, for sure!

What is the Big Deal about Christian Blogging?

With the explosion of blogging across the internet you’ll find thousands of people who blog for a million different reasons!  You’ll find that even THIS blog has many directions and a variety of content. More and more Christian blogs and people who classify themselves as Christian bloggers are popping up.

So what is the big deal about Christian blogging?

Blogging about your faith can have an impact far beyond just words on a page. God can speak through a blogger and guide them not only in the development of their blog but with everything they do on a regular basis.  I’ve seen many blogs like this and always come away feeling inspired, refreshed, encouraged, exhorted, and more.

When I began blogging, I was really just a mommy blogger – but God has been moving this blog to something different – something bigger than just family news or updates.

Writing a Christian blog can become a real heartfelt ministry.  More and more Christians are being called by the Lord to begin this ministry. Read the rest of this entry »

The BEST OF The Queen Mommy’s Cafe…

I’m on a mini-vacation of sorts – visiting my parents for a couple of days – and thought I’d provide a list of some of the BEST OF The Queen Mommy’s Cafe Posts…

If YOU really enjoyed one that I missed here – let me know!  You’re probably going to notice a theme of sorts as these progress…

My Husband Deserves A Parade!

Family Restrooms

The Zombie Queendom

Red Licorice (this post has zero comments, but STILL has several hits every month!)

At the Well – Standing for Your Marriage

CPR. It’s for Everyone

Ta-Da Tuesday! My Basic Home Notebook Forms (this is one of THE most popular posts on this blog.  It still gets tons of hits every month – and I need to update it because I’ve changed several forms since it was written.)

Friday Favorites – Devotional Series, Teaporia, Mom Printables

Making Your Home Sing Monday: Honoring Dad

And last but not least, a recent (popular) post:

Here’s to Giving Up on Perfect! My Most Embarrassing Moment